Fitness, Goals & Motivation, Lifestyle

Popping My Half Marathon Cherry: Rock N Roll Seattle 2018

Well, it has definitely been a hot minute since I posted anything.  11 days to be exact.  Honestly, mental health wasn’t the best, wasn’t motivated or inspired to do anything.  Thursday night however definitely boosted my spirits.  My best friend since high school flew up to help me make it through my very first Half Marathon.  That’s right ladies and gentlemen, a half marathon, 13.1 miles of grueling awesomeness.  Yes, contradictory, I get it.  BUT if you have done one, does that not sum it up well?

Last Friday was the Expo.  To start the day off right, we went to the Wayward Vegan Cafe in Seattle.  It’s been YEARS since I’ve been there.  Location changed, but the food was still just as delicious as before.  I ordered the Country Fried Seitan and oh my God, it was to DIE FOR!!  After we were both done stuffing our faces, we headed out in the wonderful Seattle traffic (sarcasm folks) and made it to the expo.  It was not as overwhelming as I anticipated, huge plus there, but there were so many glorious vendors, we got samples of everything!  My bestie showed me the ropes on how to work and go through an expo for maximum sample carnage.  Okay, a bit much, but oh well.  Cliff Bars, Bulletproof Coffee, temporary tattoos and FIELD ROAST!  I was beyond excited for a good amount of vegetarian and vegan options for samples, including Quorn, Field Roast, and Cliff Bars.  I also grabbed a sample of vegan gummy bears, but for the life of me, I can’t find them.  Sad face.

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We walked around for a bit, just sampling away, looking at items for purchase.  Unfortunately, I got there a little too late to pick up the 13.1 sticker for my car, but I did pick up a shit.  When you sign up, just in case you don’t know, you do get a shirt.  You pick it up after you have grabbed your packet and bib at the front.  However, I wanted another proudly showcasing the mileage.

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There was a fun little photo booth that my bestie and I took some photos in and Toyota was there offering a virtual ride in a car through a race.  Super cool.  We found the track we were going to be doing.  I will say, didn’t look as daunting on flat paper as it was in person.  Just going to leave it at that!  The rest of the evening we pretty much relaxed, watched some Netflix and tried, TRIED mind you, to go to be early.

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Now onto race day!  I set my alarm for 4:15am because on our parking pass, it said we needed to be parked by 6:00am.  So I showered, shaved, walked the girls, and got ready for the event.  My bestie KT taped my right knee for me, we both downed some Immodium and headed downtown.  Traffic was very light and we were parked right at 6:00am.

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We made sure to use the bathroom one last time and headed to our designated corral.  I was put in the last corral, 20, and my bestie was placed in the same one as me, thanks to the lovely people at the expo.

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There were so many people and it felt electric.  I realize that sounds a bit corny or cheesy, but honestly, that is the only way I could describe it.  Everyone was here to do something crazy, walk or run 13.1 miles.

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The race originally started around 6:30am.  The time our corral made it to the front it was about 7:10am and the blowhorn sounded, marking the beginning of our corral.  The first few miles were pretty easy, I was walking and jogging what I could.  By around mile 5, my left hip started hurting.  Go figure right, the one area I have never had a problem with before, started acting up.  My knee was doing great though, so yay KT tape!

By mile 9, my hip was extremely painful.  By 11 I was in an immense amount of pain.  It almost felt like someone was taking a pick to my bone every time I put my left foot down.  However, I kept going.  Kept on keeping on.  My feet hurt and I was sore all over, but I could tolerate that.  The hip was what was absolutely killing me.  You bet your ass however that I was not going to let that stop me.

By mile 12 I wanted to burn down Seattle and everyone in it.  I wanted rains of fire pouring from the heaven decimating everything in sight.  I was in pain, fucking miserable, wondering why the FUCK would someone sign up to do this stupid shit.  I wanted to scream and cry, but my stubborn ass refused to do that shit.  But I kept hobbling.  Oh yes, hobbling.  I could barely walk by mile 12.  At one point, I turned a corner, saw a band playing and thought, Halle-fucking-lujah the end!  But it wasn’t.  That’s when I cursed out loud, “Are you fucking kidding me?!?!”

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But, I kept going.  I finally saw the finish line and I smiled. I hobbled over that line, making it about 4 hours and 10 minutes for me to complete my first half marathon, and I picked up my very first medal.  For once in my life, I fucking completed something.

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It took over an hour to rest for a bit and hobble to my car.  Sitting for a bit, eating some hummus and a protein bar directly after, then having to take breaks between hobbles because my hip was in excruciating pain.  I picked up Taco Bell on the way back to my house and when we reached my house, I hobbled one step at a time up the stairs, then collapsed on my chair and ripped off my shoes and socks.  I was bleeding on my left foot, forgot to trim my toenails, and only had one blister!  Although, a couple of days later learned I had a blister under my toenail on my right big toe, as in directly under my toenail.

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So after all of that, being sore and in pain for almost 4 solid days after the marathon, would I do it again?

Abso-fucking-lutely.  I always laughed or wondered at the running memes of runners and marathons.  Saying something along the lines of, if you do one, you want to do them always.  Now, I can’t at the moment say yes to always, but I am already planning to do the Seattle Half Marathon and the Las Vegas Half Marathon next year.  I have learned so much from “training” for this half marathon, that I know a bit more of what I need to do to improve.  I have just about a year till the next Seattle Rock N Roll Half Marathon and my time goal is 3 hours and 30 minutes.  I proved to myself I am fully capable of anything.

I’m getting back on track with my eating, worked out a plan for running and strength training, and am ready to take on this next challenge.  I can’t thank my bestie enough, because she was with me, pushed me, and supported me.  I have hung my bib and medal on my vision board to further motivate and inspire me.  So here’s to the Seattle Rock N Roll Half Marathon 2019!

 

Fitness, Goals & Motivation

June 2018 Check-In

I am pretty sure I say this every month, but I truly feel this year has been flying by.  This post is a few days late, but here I am with it.  Time for my monthly check-in.  The past couple of months have been pretty rough for me mentally.  At times I feel like completely checking out of this whole fitness/weight loss journey.  I mentioned on my Instagram post of the saying, losing weight is hard, being overweight is hard, choose your hard.  Well, for the past couple of months I have felt like picking staying overweight.

I have been overweight practically my entire life.  In third grade, I weighed 110 pounds.  At one point I got down to 165 pounds and stayed around that weight for a couple of years, but felt no different as if I was 240 pounds.  The only time I was ever skinny or fit was when I was around five years old.  I don’t know the feeling of being fit or thin.  I just know about being fat.  Throughout the years that has taken such a toll on my mental health.

What has triggered a lot of this, well, what I feel has triggered a lot of this is the lack of drive I sustain for losing weight.  What I mean is, one side of my brain is producing images of things I will more easily be able to do when I am fit, things I feel I would be more confident in doing or trying, such as wearing a bikini, take scuba diving lessons, there are these images and scenarios that play in my head of all the things I would better be able to accomplish at a smaller, healthier size.  It truly gets me pumped up and excited.  Then the other half of my brain comes barreling through.  You’ll never be able to do that.  You are never going to get fit.  Even if you somehow manage to lose the weight, you will gain it all back, just like last time.  You are fat, worthless, and ugly.  Not a fun side to deal with.

On top of that, one of my closest friends has lost almost 50 pounds in 4 months.  Now before you jump down my throat, I am happy for her.  Truly I am.  But, unfortunately, that makes me feel like shit because it has taken me almost a year to lose 40 pounds.  When you are already struggling with mental health issues regarding this matter something like that definitely doesn’t help or boost my confidence.  Everyone is different, every body is different, and it is amazing that she’s been able to do that.  For me, it makes me feel like a failure because I can’t stick to healthy eating or anything for that matter.  I can’t stick to a schedule to work out, eat right, nothing.

Here is where my positive side comes through and what I am trying, trying to focus on.  Even with my binge eating, my mental roller coaster I have been on and stay on, through my horrible ups and downs, and my gross amount of inconsistencies, I have managed to lose 40 pounds.  No pills, no weight loss surgery, just me, somehow still moving forward through all of my mental chaos and self-sabotage, lost 40 pounds.  I can’t always see that through my mental misery, but I see that today and I try to see that on my bad days.

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Thursday, my best friend since high school is flying up here and we are doing the Seattle Rock ‘N Roll Half Marathon together on Sunday.  I may not be running it, but Goddammit, I am going to do my best and finish that fucker.  I am going to hang that number and medal on my vision board so I look at that every fucking day and remind myself I finished something.

So here’s to losing 40 pounds, here’s to my first half marathon this Sunday, and here’s to being under 200 pounds by July 1!  Goodnight everybody!

Beauty

April & May 2018 Empties!

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Here we are at the end of month five of 2018 and another empties post.  Honestly, I didn’t think I would publish another empties post so soon, but my products collected quickly.  If you want to check out my last empties post, I will have that linked for you here.  I have decided to go from home products, hair care, skin care, makeup items, then samples.  I love saving makeup stuff for last because that’s what gets me most excited.  So if you are curious what made it to my trash pile, just keep on reading.  Also, this is another long post so you might wanna grab a drink!

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For the months of April and May, I managed to use up three candles.  This is a pretty big deal for me because I am famous for buying candles but never using them up.  That pumpkin spice candle I have had for 2 years in my backstock.  Yes, 2 years.  Actually, it may be 3 but we will just stick with 2.  I fucking LOVE pumpkin spice.  Pumpkin ANYTHING is my jam.  Although, Pumpkin Spice Lattes are terrible, stick with a White Chocolate Pumpkin Americano, you are welcome.  This candle wasn’t overpowered with cinnamon (thank fucking Christ).  You have enough warmth to the pumpkin so it wasn’t overly sweet, but the strong fragrance would waft through the house wonderfully.  Think of a fresh slice of warmed pumpkin pie.  Every time I burnt this candle I would be transported to fall, with the crisp, cool air, the leaves changing from green to yellow, orange, and red, and me bundled up in my blankets watching Hocus Pocus.  Oh yeah, this candle is wonderful.  I still have two in my backstock.  It is the Mainstays Pumpkin Spice Candle ($4.86 US for 20oz) and it is seasonal, usually coming back in stock around late August, early September.

The other candle has quickly become a close second.  It is the Better Homes & Gardens Around the Campfire Candle ($5.96 US for 18oz).  Oh my gosh.  If you need a more affordable option for Bath & Body Works Marshmallow Fireside Candle, this is it!  It is warm, smokey, slightly sweet.  Good God!  Unfortunately, this scent is limited edition.  You can’t order it online, it is an in-store purchase only.  When I originally picked up this candle, I only grabbed two.  I went back a couple days later and picked up an additional four.  This takes me to the end of fall, beginning of winter type of scent.  I just adore it.  Literally, as I am typing this I’m inhaling the fragrance.  I need a perfume of this, honestly.  Like, yesterday.   I only have three left in my backstock and I’m not comfortable with that.  Anyway, let’s keep moving, shall we?

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Alright, I need to work on these.  I will explain why in just a second.  So first, yay, used up a Febreze Aerosol in Fresh Cut Pine ($2.97 originally, $18 US for a 3-Pack on Amazon), however, I still have 13 cans left.  Granted not of this scent but of the Pumpkin scent, but I digress 13.  Yes, you read that correctly 13 as in 1-3 cans of Febreze.  Why?  No fucking idea.  I love the scent of these things, they work wonderfully, but I forget to use them.  They are even sitting out to where I can see them and I still forget to use them.  This number is not necessary, I need to work on lowering these!

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This one though, this item right here, I am SUPER proud of.  This is the Elizabeth and James Nirvana Bourbon Dry Shampoo ($28 US for 4.4oz).  Nirvana Bourbon is one of my top three favorite fragrances of all time.  It is incredibly sexy and sensual to me, having a mixture of vanilla bourbon, Oakwood, and tuberose.  Why am I proud that this is an empty?  I don’t use dry shampoos.  Ever.  Before purchasing this item I used dry shampoo once or twice and didn’t get it.  Yet, I bought this, as well as the Nirvana Black Dry Shampoo ($28 US for 4.4oz).  I have just started using the Nirvana Black Dry Shampoo.  But are you ready for this?  I bought this dry shampoo August 23 of 2017.  This one dry shampoo took me around 9 months to use up.  Fucking finally.  However, let me say.  If I actually was a person who committed to using dry shampoos often, I would ABSOLUTELY repurchase this product.  It actually got my hair feeling clean and smelling amazing!

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Next up we have a moisturizer from Clinique called the Dramatically Different Moisturizing Gel ($27 for 4.2oz).  Clinique as a brand I feel doesn’t get talked about enough.  If I wasn’t going towards being cruelty-free I would totally repurchase this product.  It sunk into my skin beautifully, leaving it hydrated without it feeling heavy or greasy.  All around this is a wonderful, basic moisturizer that I feel you also get a good bang for your buck because this size lasted me for ages!  I thought I was never going to use this moisturizer up!

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Next up are some makeup remover wipes.  These I picked up from Fred Meyer, usually on sale for 2/$4.  They work well at removing most of my makeup.  They do sting my eyes a bit and I do not have sensitive eyes.  So if you do, I either recommend not using them around your eye or don’t pick them up period.  They also have a pretty strong fragrance, so if you are not into that either, avoid.  I like that they are inexpensive and easy to find.  I still have a couple of packs in backstock.  After I move through those I am going to try the E.L.F. brand wipes, since those are fairly inexpensive and cruelty-free.  If you have any good recommendations for makeup remover wipes that are cruelty-free, please leave them in the comments!!  Thanks in advance!

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Now onto my favorite part.  MAKEUP EMPTIES!  Does anyone else get super excited when they use up a big makeup item?  I get super stoked!  Especially when one of those items is a foundation!  Ahhh!  I even tried scraping as much of the foundation out of the bottle as possible.  The Fiona Stiles Matte Finish Foundation Concentrate in 01 Porcelain ($30 US for 1oz) is hands down my favorite foundation of all time.  Originally carried at ULTA, all of a sudden everything was being discontinued from this line.  I about lost my shit.  It took over a year, almost two years I think until Fiona Stiles re-launched her beauty line on ShopReedClarke.com  Honest to God, I’m still worried because I don’t know if Fiona Stiles Beauty will be a permanent part of Reed Clarke, so when the foundation came in stock I purchased three backups.  I don’t think she reformulated the foundation because it appears and works the same, but the lightest shade is now 01 Alabaster and it is pretty similar to the original 01 Porcelain.  Anyway, moving on.

I also used up an Urban Decay All Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray ($32 for 4oz).  This is a good setting spray, don’t get me wrong, but I don’t feel it is as amazing as everyone hypes it up to be.  I have been really loving the Kat Von D Lock-It Makeup Setting Mist ($26 for 4oz) and I feel it makes my makeup last longer and truly locks it into place.  So, even though it is good, I would repurchase the Kat Von D one over the Urban Decay one.

Another item that I was able to knock out was my Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Wiz in Granite ($21 US).  I have used up several of these and have never been let down.  It has been my holy grail for years.  I’m still trying out the Kat Von D Signature Brow Precision Pencil in Graphite ($20 US) that I picked up during the Sephora VIB Sale, so I don’t know if I like that one more.  I do have a back up of the ABH Brow Wiz in the shade Ebony that I am working on right now.  After I use that one, I truly feel I will repurchase another Brow Wiz, it just never lets me down and I love it so much.  Also, quick question.  I have seen so many people talk about how their spoolies always break on their brow wiz and yet I have NEVER had that happen to me.  Have any of you guys had that happen?  It just makes me curious as to how viciously they are combing through their brows to get their spoolie to break, you know what I mean?

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Last but certainly not least are the samples!  Believe it or not, samples are hard for me to use up.  I always forget to reach for them because I tend to tuck them away.  I have been trying my best to keep up on them and use up the products.  Let’s talk about the Origins Clear Improvement Active Charcoal Mask ($27 for 3.4oz).  This deluxe sample size was a perfect size to try out the product.  I got a multitude of uses from this 1oz sample, giving me a good idea of the product.  Overall, I felt it was a very good mask, it sunk into my skin and definitely felt like it detoxified my skin.  However, Origins is not cruelty-free and it does not work better than my Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay ($8.30 for 1lb) and it is much more expensive.

Next, we have the belif The True Cream Moisturizing Bomb ($38 for 1.68oz).  Again, nice sized sample.  I felt I was given enough product to fully test it out.  The consistency was on the thicker side, which I expected since it is a cream.  For my skin however it was too thick, felt heavy on my skin and didn’t sink in like I would have liked.  This product I feel would work best for someone with really dry skin.  I did enjoy the Aqua Bomb ($38 for 1.68oz), but sadly I would not purchase due to belif not being cruelty-free.

To round out the samples, I had a small offering of the Sol de Janeiro Brazilian Bum Bum Cream ($45 for 8.1oz).  This one I was genuinely prepared to hate.  When this first launched everyone and their fucking mother was raving about this product.  How it smelled so amazing, was so luxurious, how it was the best body cream ever, yadda yadda yadda.  Yeah right, it’s a fucking body lotion, how good could it actually be?  Well, the lotion is nothing to write home about.  It’s good, don’t get me wrong, but I wouldn’t say it is any better than The Body Shop Body Butters ($21 for 7oz).  What is amazing about this product is the fucking scent!  I never, in a million years, would have thought I would like something with pistachio and salted caramel notes.  Not because I don’t like them as food items, but with those keynotes, I would figure it would be something super sickly sweet.  Boy was I wrong!  It is sweet but in a sexy almost musky way.  It is hard for me to put my finger on, but if you could go in just to smell it, you will understand what I am saying.  The next time I go into Sephora, I am going to find the Brazilian Crush Body Fragrance Mist ($32 for 8.1oz) and see if it is dead on of the Bum Bum Cream because if it is, I would ABSOLUTELY purchase this fragrance!

Jesus this was a long ass post!  I had to take breaks writing this because it was taking me so long, haha.  So in the past two months, I have managed to use up $161.75 worth of product, putting me at a total of $342.45 worth of product used up in five months.  Not bad if I say so myself!  Well, I feel I have definitely taken up plenty of your time.  If you have actually read this entire post, damn.  And secondly type marshmallow in the comment section, haha.  Also, if you love collecting your trash as much as I do for these purposes, let me know what you used up and what you plan on repurchasing!  I truly feel empties are the best way to know how someone truly feels about a product, don’t you?  Thanks for stopping by and until next time!

Beauty, Reviews

NYX, Wet N Wild, & Bitter Lace Beauty Haul & Mini Reviews

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As you could probably tell by now, I am a lover of makeup.  Just not the stereotypical, Instagram beat type of makeup.  My glam is not the “typical” glam.  When I mean “typical” glam, I mean the makeup plastered on many popular Instagram accounts as well as brand accounts.  Now, if that is your thing, power to you.  You do you.  I’m more into the different and obscure type of beauty.  If you read My Makeup Aesthetic Tag, you already know.

Well, I did a little bit of shopping in the past month and a half and that I would do a collective haul for you guys as well as mini reviews.  As you may or may not know, I am working on my collection to be fully cruelty-free.  So, moving forward, any makeup product I bring into my collection must be cruelty-free.  Enough with the blabber, let’s get onto the makeup!  Although, grab a drink or a snack for this one.  It may be a long read.

Bitter Lace Beauty
Bitter Lace Beauty is an Indie brand.  You may have heard of them when their Rainbow Highlighter went viral last year.  Highlighters are what they are known for and offer and I picked up 3 different highlighters.  Unfortunately, 2 were limited edition and the third is being discontinued.  Sad face.  I’ll still show them off anyway.  First, let’s talk about the package the products were shipped in.

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Everything was securely wrapped.  The box was pink and had beautiful floral detail on the inside.  There was even a cute little card with Holographic detailing and a mermaid sticker.  Super cute.

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The first highlighter I picked up was SLAY, a limited edition Halloween Kill-uminator.  Oh am I a sucker for the play on words with this one.  They describe it as “A white gold flecked base with an intense metallic blood red splatter.”  Next is Blood Lust, a limited edition Valentine highlighter, which is the exact red from the SLAY Kill-uminator.  It is described as “A blue-based red with a slightly warm amber shift.”  Quick note, this one is scented and it smells amazing!  It’s a combination of sandalwood, amber musk, and vanilla.  Bitter Lace Beauty, if you happen to be reading this.  I need that fragrance.  Like, pronto!  Thank you in advance!  Lastly is the discontinued shade of Deadly Nightshade (it is still in stock ATM and for only $9 US).  The ONLY reason I picked up this highlighter was for the Nightmare Before Christmas reference.  That’s it.  They describe it as “a cooler toned gray beige that has hints of pink and green undertones that appear silver in the pan.”

All three are quite beautiful on the skin.  The texture is incredibly soft and buttery.  I will say SLAY is slightly, slightly more powdery to the point you might consider it being crumbly, but if you use it very lightly, there is no problem.  Now, don’t think just because I recommend pressing into them lightly you are not going to get off a killer pay off, because you are wrong.  These are incredibly high shine.  I mean, HIGH SHINE.  They are blinding.  I personally don’t care for SLAY or Blood Lust as actual highlighters but on my eyes and inner corner.  Damn.  You can’t miss it.  Blood Lust is almost exactly like Kat Von D’s Raw Power Metal Crush Eyeshadow (discontinued).  Blood Lust is a bit more blood red, while Raw Power leans more towards a rust red, but in swatches, you cannot tell much of a difference.  Also, Raw Power tends to have more of a gold reflect than Blood Lust.

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Overall, I thoroughly enjoy these products and have not been disappointed.  Again, I don’t use these as actual highlights, I enjoy them more for eyeshadow purposes.  If these are your cup of coffee, then I highly recommend!

NYX Professionals Makeup
There have been a few products by NYX Professionals Makeup that has caught my eye that I wanted to give a go.  Before picking up these few items, I have the Faux Blacks Eyeliner in Oxblood ($7.99 US, fucking LOVE this product), the Epic Ink Liner ($7.99 US), and a couple of the Lip Lingerie Liquid Lipsticks ($6.99 US).  I’ve used quite a few NYX products and overall been really happy with the brand.  What I have been super intrigued and excited to try the Vivid Brights Creme Color in Bad Blood ($9.99 US) and the Strictly Vinyl Lip Gloss in Femme Fatale ($7.99 US).  So, besides grabbing those two items I picked up the Liquid Suede Cream Lipstick in Alien ($6.99 US) and the Butter Gloss in Black Berry Pie ($4.99 US).  When I made my order they threw in a Worth The Hype Mascara ($7.99 US).

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The Strictly Vinyl Lip Gloss in Femme Fatale is immensely glossy and black.  I didn’t have to build this up much to get full-color payoff.  The effect is wonderful.  The downfall is this lipgloss is heavy on the lips and it does bleed.  Would definitely recommend a lip liner with this product.  The Butter Gloss in Black Berry Pie gives a very similar effect to the vinyl lip gloss.  It is not as thick as the vinyl lip gloss and it does need to be built up in order to reach full opacity.  Like the vinyl lip gloss, I would totally recommend a lip liner.  Also, you don’t need both.  I would say pick up the Butter Gloss, you get almost 3 times the product and it is $3 cheaper.

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The Liquid Suede Cream Lipstick in Alien is exactly as its name states.  It is a cream liquid lipstick.  It does mattify a touch, but it is not transfer-proof.  On my lips, it kind of comes across as more of a blue-based black.  It is very liquidy in consistency, but it is comfortable on the lips and not overly drying.  I enjoy it, but if you are looking for something transfer-proof, this would not be the product for you.  Lastly is the Vivid Brights Creme Colour in Bad Blood, the item I was most excited about.  Unfortunately, this is a bit disappointing for me.  I haven’t tried mixing some of my Inglot Duraline in with it yet to see if it improves the texture at all, but as is, the creme is extremely dry.  It is hard to pick up a decent amount of product with a brush or your finger and it is almost clumpy.  Also, with it being so dry it takes a bit to blend out.  It also takes quite a bit of building in order to get a good color payoff.  I am going to keep playing around with it to see if I can get it to work, but for right now, sadly I don’t recommend.  If you have tried this and got it to work, let me know how you did it in the comments section!  Maybe I’m just using it wrong.

Wet N Wild Beauty
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has to be my favorite drugstore brand, hands down.  Especially nowadays, Wet N Wild has been stepping up their game.  Their highlighters work incredibly well, their Liquid Catsuits are one of my favorite liquid lipstick formulas, their price tags are amazeballs, they are just great.  My favorite nude lipstick is from Wet N Wild, I love Wet N Wild.

This time around I picked up a total of 3 new Liquid Catsuits ($4.99 US) (I know there is only two in the picture, I will explain why shortly), a MegaLast Lip Color in Black Out ($2.49 US), a MegaGlo Highlighting Powder in White Raven (Limited Edition $4.99 US), and a Pro Brush Line Tapered Highlighting Brush ($5.99 US).

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Now, let’s talk about the Liquid Catsuits.  I originally ordered 3 DIFFERENT shades of Liquid Catsuits.  So Noir Cool, the black, Sleepy Hollow, a medium blue based grey shade, and Widows Peek, from what the pictures show, a dark grey.  Nope.  It’s black.  I even opened it and swatched it.  Widows Peek is a black shade, not dark grey.  I mean, I’m not super mad, can never have enough black lipsticks in my opinion, but was definitely expecting a dark grey.  Le sigh.

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The formula for So Noir Cool and Sleepy Hollow are consistent with Nudie Patootie, a more moussey texture, but on the slightly thinner side.  Didn’t have to build these in order to get full opacity.  One dip in the tube was all it took.  Wear time, same as usual.  Pretty decent without eating too many greasy foods.  Layers decently, but not the best, can get a little crumbly.  The MegaLast Lip Color is a standard lipstick in my opinion.  It does not come out the blackest but does have decent staying power and I did not notice any bleeding.  It ends up being more of a matte finish on the lips and is slightly drying.  All three lip products I enjoy and would recommend.

Lastly is the Goth-o-graphic MegaGlo Highlighting Powder in White Raven.  I am going to be honest with you.  I only bought it because it was apart of the Goth-o-graphic collection and it had Raven in the title.  I’m not going to get much use out of this highlighter because it does have a purple shift to it and I am not a fan of purple.  However, the formula is very smooth and buttery and the pay off is quite brilliant.  If you like a purple shift to your highlights and you can still find this one, I don’t think you will be disappointed.

Holy shit this took a lot longer to type up than I was anticipating.  I did say this was going to be a long one.  If you are slightly curious why I purchased so many black lip products, in the future I am going to be doing a black lipstick showdown.  Which brands have the best black lipstick, liquid lipstick, gloss, etc.  So I am collecting!  Well, I hope you found this somewhat interesting or helpful if you did let me know in the comments down below.  Have you tried any of these products?  What are your thoughts on them?  Thanks for stopping by and until next time!

Beauty

April Sephora VIB Sale: Haul

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First off, let me preface this post by saying I should have also included that this is 99.8% a Kat Von D Beauty haul.  If you happened to read my Makeup Aesthetic Tag post, you will have already learned that I love Kat Von D, her makeup and aesthetic, and absolutely love her brand.  One thing I have been debating about for a while is doing a full face of Kat Von D Beauty.  Well, I do have quite of bit of her products, but needed a few others to round out the look.

Kat Von D’s most recent launch is something I have been looking forward too.  I’m always on the hunt for new brow products that can possibly surpass my Anastasia Beverly Hills products, both the Brow Wiz and Pomade.  With that launching 4/20, I decided, fuck it, and placed a full order on Sephora.

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When typing up this post, there was another order I placed during the sale, but it hadn’t arrived in time to take pictures, so I will just mention and link the products first.

I picked up another Huda Beauty Liquid Matte Lipstick ($20 US) in the shade Flirt.  It is described as a “cheeky brown.”  I have been debating about this color for a while.  I have the shade Spice Girl, which is a brownish mauve, and truly enjoy the feeling of the lipstick on my lips.  The reason I have been debating about Flirt is because DupeThat listed Flirt as a dupe for Cryptic Cosmetics Creepshow ($17 US).  Creepshow has been out of stock for AGES.  Every time I have received a notification of it being back in stock, I’ve arrived too late.  Forewarning you, everything from here on out is nothing by Kat Von D Beauty.  You have been warned. lol

Next, I picked up a Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick ($20 US) in the shade Nahz Fur Atoo, a blood crimson shade.  I have had her liquid lipsticks in the past and have enjoyed them.  They are a little bit more drying than others, but not to where I feel uncomfortable in them.  They also don’t have the greatest staying power on my lips, even when I don’t eat or drink anything.  Again, I don’t mind this because they do layer well in my opinion.  For those wondering, I have had Bow ‘N Arrow and Witches in the past.

The last item I picked up on this separate order was the Kat Von D 24-Hour Super Brow Long-Wear Pomade ($19 US) in Scarlet.  I was debating on also picking up Graphite, but I have yet to use up my Anastasia Beverly Hills DIPBROW Pomade ($18 US) in Granite.  Once I do that and if I enjoy the formula of Scarlet, I will order Graphite.  The reason I ordered Scarlet is because A) I love the color red.  I try and incorporate red into my wardrobe and look every single day.  B) I am thinking of dying my hair red again so I would like to be able to match my brows.  Even if I don’t end up dying my hair red again, I would definitely still incorporate red brows into my look.  Now, let’s get onto the items I have already received, shall we?

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The first item I’ll talk about is the Kat Von D Lock-It Foundation ($35 US).  I picked up the shade Light 42 Neutral.  I have had this foundation before, although it has been a while.  I used it up but never repurchased.  I will say, the shade I picked up is a little light for me, but I can still make it work.  The only gripe I have is it claims to be neutral but it runs extremely pink, least on me it does.  I tend to have a more neutral to slightly yellow undertone even though I am quite fair, so the foundation is a bit off on its own.  When I do a full face of Kat Von D Beauty, I’ll review everything more in-depth and show what I mean.  I do plan to pick up another shade, I think Light 45 Warm might be what I am looking for.

Well, since I picked up the foundation, I had to pick up the concealer.  Everything moving forward I have never used or tried before, so all of this will be new for me!  I grabbed the Lock-It Concealer Crème ($26 US) in L1 Neutral and shit.  This is light!  I had to double check to make sure I didn’t pick up the white concealer.  So, safe to say it will be extremely brightening on me.

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Since I have a swatch of it next to the concealer, I will mention that I picked up a Studded Kiss Crème Lipstick ($19 US) in the shade Bow ‘N Arrow.  This was a recommendation by a few people in the Sephora community tab.  I have been on the hunt for a more brownie nude shade that didn’t run warm and quite a few people recommended the lipstick version of Bow ‘N Arrow, so why the hell not right?

Now onto all the eye products!  Like I mentioned earlier, in my other order I did decide to pick up her pomade, but on this order, I did pick up a Signature Brow Precision Pencil ($20 US) in the shade Graphite.  I did forget to take a picture of a swatch of this, however, I don’t think it would have shown up well because it was a bit light.  I will showcase it in the full face of Kat Von D Beauty though.

What I did swatch was all of the eyeshadows.  I grabbed the Shade & Light Eye Contour Quad (discontinued) in Smoke, another Metal Crush Eyeshadow (discontinued) in Black No. 1, and the Lolita Eyeshadow ($19 US).  I forgot that I picked up another Metal Crush Eyeshadow.  I currently own Raw Power and Thunderstruck and absolutely LOVE THEM.  I’m so excited to play around with Black No. 1 and I hope she is just reformulating them so they are all vegan.  I truly hope she doesn’t get rid of them permanently.  I decided to pick up the Shade & Light Eye Contour Quad in Smoke because I have been debating on it for a while.  Then, once I realized it was being discontinued I was really edging towards picking it up.  Realizing it was still in stock during the sale was the final pushing factor.  The smoothness and quality just from the swatches remind me of the formula of the Shade & Light Eye Contour Palette, so hopefully, I won’t be disappointed.  I will say, Jen from Jen Loves Reviews did a video with Lindsay Schoolcraft  (😍 😍 😍 😍) of Cradle of Filth and she raved about the quads sooo that might also have swayed my overall reason to buy.

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The last two items are the #70 Pomade Brow Brush ($18 US) and Lock-It Makeup Setting Mist ($26 US).  The brush I decided on because I have seen quite a few reviews of the brow products by Kat and the brush’s tip actually seemed thin.  Not disappointed on that, although I haven’t tried it yet.  The Makeup Setting Mist I have heard mixed reviews on.  I don’t think you can have enough setting sprays, so I went for it.  I haven’t used it on my face yet, but I did test out the mister and holy hell!  That mist is beautiful, extremely fine!  So, I’m excited to see how it works for the face.

Now I know I have done two hauls relatively close to each other, but I promise you there are probably not going to be a lot of hauls in the future.  I am extremely picky about what I purchase and most items that are released do not interest me.  They seem more suited for the Instagram and Beauty Guru scene and clearly, that is not me.  Everything I purchase has to fit within my aesthetic and needs to be practical for me and my look.  Before I went extremely ham on purchasing products because of packaging and hype.  I have for the most part gotten over that, and the overall need to constantly buy.  I am trying at least to be a little more practical in my spending.

Well, I hope you found this somewhat interesting.  If you decided to pick up a few items from the Sephora VIB Sale, I would love to hear what you got!  Also, if there are any items that I picked up that you have or have tried, let me know how it went for you in the comment section.  I think that does it for now, thanks for stopping by and until next time!

Goals & Motivation

When I Grow Up.

There are times that I stop and think about my childhood dreams and aspirations.  Have you ever done that?  Reflect on all the things you said you were going to be and do when you grew up?  How many of you guys actually accomplished those goals or dreams?  I haven’t accomplished any of them.  Now, before you think this is going to be a downer type of post, it isn’t.  It’s a reflection on my fearlessness as a child and having the mentality that I could achieve anything, do anything, be anything.  Where did I, or we for that matter, lose that sense of purpose or even wonder of the world?  So, for today’s post, I thought it would be fun to go back down memory lane and discuss some of the things I wanted to achieve or do as a child.  Who I thought I was going to be when I became an “adult” then add a little twist to it.  Keep reading to understand what I mean.

First I will talk about things I wanted to be able to do.  I was a child who grew up in the 90’s and loved everything the 90’s had to offer.  I was (and still am) a tomboy.  Some people don’t like that word, I love it and fully embrace it.  Some of my favorite movies and shows involved some form of martial arts.  Hell, I even was enrolled in Karate for a bit.  I was all about the Power Rangers, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and the 3 Ninjas.  See the trend?  The Red Ranger, Raphael, and Colt were the three I aspired to.  There also cues my obsession with the color red.  I remember playing pretend, doing wild moves that were definitely NOT martial arts, pretending to kick ass and take names.  Although I will say I definitely know how to kick some ass and take some names now, it is definitely not by means of being martial arts master.

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Here is where the twist comes.  My goal is to sign up for martial arts classes, once I start getting closer to my overall health goal.  I am using it as a reward.  I don’t remember which post I mentioned this in, but I was having a hard time figuring out some rewards for achieving some of my goals.  I definitely don’t want them to be involved around food, but things that I have wanted to do, but felt it was more difficult being the size that I currently am.

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Next is a dream I had.  I wanted to be a fighter pilot in the military.  I would watch old World War II movies with my dad, watching insane maneuvers by pilots and being incredibly fascinated.  When the Blue Angels had a performance, I remember reading all about it.  Unfortunately, I was told I could never be a fighter pilot because I was a female.  That completely devastated me as a child and stuck with me as an adult.  However, fuck that!  So what do you think the goal is?  Becoming a pilot!  This one will take me a bit, you need over 1000 pilot hours, simulation training, Lord have mercy there is a lot to do for this one, but time will pass regardless, right?  A little progress each day leads to big results.

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The last one is probably the biggest one.  Since I was about 5 or 6, I fell in love with sharks.  Especially Great Whites.  I wanted to swim with them and save them.  This one has stuck with me the strongest and longest.  I have so many different books on sharks and can pull up random information about them at the drop of a hat.  Throughout my years of school, I remember doing various projects on sharks.  There were times we would have assignments where you discussed what you wanted to be when you grew up.  Mine was a Marine Biologist who specialized in Sharks, aka an Ichthyologist with a specialization in Sharks.  I have seen every episode of Shark Week, I even own it on DVD, and I have a giant Great White Shark tattooed on my calf.  I fucking LOVE sharks.  Sharks have always been a huge part of my life.  That is why I want to become a certified Scuba Diver, which is the first step of the overall goal to swim with sharks.  I want to travel to Australia in order to swim with the Whites off the coast.

These may seem crazy or weird even to some of you, but I’m sure everyone had crazy dreams when they were young.  We are not all destined to the same life path.  What were some of your childhood dreams or aspirations?  What did you want to do when you grew up?  At times I feel we are conditioned to just go through the motions of life, forgetting childhood dreams and just be content with where we are all at now.  As the saying goes, we were not put on this earth to pay bills and die.  And we sure as shit ain’t dead yet.  So why not reminisce for a bit and get some motivation to move forward?  I thought this might be fun and a little insightful, and definitely something different.  I hope this helped in some way.  Well, that does it for me.  Thanks for stopping by and until next time!

Beauty

Current Quick & Easy Makeup Look

When I am heading to work or having to run some errands and decide to throw on some makeup, I want it to be quick.  I’m never late to work or appointments, but I am famous for waiting till the last minute to get ready.  Every time.  Don’t ask me why, I just do.  So, since that is always the case, I need a routine where I feel put together, still feel like me, but doesn’t take me 8 hours to do.  Here it is.

So, if you are curious to see how I get from this:

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To this:

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Then just keep on reading!

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I love makeup.  It is such a therapeutic and artistic outlet for me.  The only problem??  I tend to do the same makeup day in and day out.  The only variation really is the lip.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ll switch up the products, but the overall look tends to be the same.  It’s simple and quick.  Once complete, usually in about 15 to 20 minutes, I feel put together and ready to take on the day.  Or stare at myself in the mirror for 15 to 20 minutes admiring my handiwork. 😜

The most important thing is to start off with a clean and moisturized canvas.  After I have let my skincare sink into my skin, I start out with primer.  Honestly, the only reason I use primer is to use up my stash.  I have yet to find a primer that actually makes a significant difference.  Currently, I am using the Milani Prime Shield Mattifying + Pore-Minimizing Face Primer.  With my fingers, I dab a little bit on my cheeks, nose, forehead, and chin.  Basically, my T-Zone to help somewhat diminish pores and to possibly help keep me matte longer.

For foundation, I do a concoction of 2 pumps Fiona Stiles Matte Finish Foundation Concentrate in 01 Alabaster and 1 pump Urban Decay Naked Skin Weightless Ultra Definition Liquid Foundation in 1.5.  I mix them together, then with a damp beauty sponge blend it into my skin.  I am not fond of using a brush to blend in my foundation.  For me, I tend to always get streaks, then have to blend with a damp sponge anyway, so I just stick with a sponge.

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For me, this mixture gives me a beautiful, medium coverage with a long-lasting natural finish.  It never feels heavy or gets cakey throughout the day.  Next, on to concealer and setting the face.  Currently, I am trying to use up the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Dark Circle Treatment Concealer in Fair and the Maybelline Fit Me Loose Finishing Powder in 05 Fair.  They both work wonderfully, unfortunately, they are not cruelty-free.

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With the concealer, I put a little under my eyes, on the sides of my nose where redness tends to peak through, and on my lids as an eyeshadow base.  Then blend it in with the same damp sponge that I used to blend in my foundation.

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After I have blended that in, I will lightly bake under my eyes, my eye lids and my T-zone for about a minute with the Fit Me powder, then gently dust away the excess.  I will also lightly set the rest of my face with a large, fluffy powder brush, mostly to help keep me matte and set the foundation so it is not longer sticky.

Next is bronzer, contour, and HIGHLIGHT.  Seriously, who doesn’t love a good highlight?  For bronzer, I really love the Physician’s Formula Butter Bronzer in Bronzer, however, I have yet to find a person who doesn’t love that.  It is easy to build and blend, and thank you JESUS doesn’t look orange on my pasty ass.  With a medium sized fluffy brush, I dust it along the hollows of my cheeks, at my temples and a little on my jawline.  For contour, I use the Catrice Prime & Fine Professional Contouring Palette in 010 Ashy Radiance and go in the same areas, just with a slightly smaller brush.  This is such a phenomenal contour shade for me, as you can probably see from the pan showing through the lid.

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Onto the highlight, one of my favorite parts (honestly, I pretty sure it is a favorite part for many).  With highlight, I usually go for the Anastasia Beverly Hills Starlight Illuminator, which they discontinued (fucking pissed about that).  However, I recently hauled some products from Black Moon Cosmetics that I am testing out in order to give a full review on in the future (click here if you’d like to check out that post).  For today’s look, I decided to go with the Black Moon Cosmetics Moonlighter in Centipede.  With a highlight brush, I dust it on the high points of my cheekbones, lightly on the tip of my nose, and just graze my upper lip.

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For eyeshadow, I keep it immensely simple.  You know the trick where you take your bronzer or contour shade and work it into your crease with a fluffy brush?  Yeah, that is what I do.  I stick with my contour shade because I tend to enjoy cooler tones on my eyes.  It looks simple yet put together.

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On to the rest of my eyes and face.  As you most likely saw from the previous photo, I shave off the end part of my eyebrows.  Unfortunately, my eyebrows tend to give me quite a bit of trouble.  I have had them shaped and filled professionally quite a few times, but they never seem to fit.  My eyebrows naturally are a bit sparse and when I let them grow out, they still never seem to work well with my face.  So, I said fuck it and shaved most of them off.  Honestly, best decision yet!  It is so much easier and quicker for me to do my brows now!  For brows, on my quick days, I use the Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Wiz in Granite.  If I have a little extra time, I will use the Anastasia Beverly Hills DIPBROW Pomade in Granite.  To set the brows, I just brush through with a little clear brow gel.  Right now I am trying to use up my NYX Control Freak Brow Gel.

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Before I throw on my mascara, I do like to set my face.  I don’t really have a ride or die setting spray, as long as it melds my powders into my skin we are good.  Currently, it is the Urban Decay All Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray, although not for long!  Empties spoiler: I have maybe one or two uses left and it will be in the empties bin!  For mascara, it is 99% always waterproof.  Being a dog groomer, with water splashing, hair flying, heat melting you away, the mascara really needs to last, mostly so I don’t end up looking like a raccoon by the end of the day.  The L’Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise Waterproof Mascara in Blackest Black is such an amazing mascara for me, unfortunately, not cruelty-free.  Sad panda.  I have three additional tubes as back ups, so once those are all used up, it will be back to the Essence I Love Extreme Volume Waterproof Mascara, which is half the cost as the L’Oreal one and just as good, just dries out quicker.  Don’t I look so enthused in this picture below?  Lord.  Smile Leah! lol  Also, look at how brows just balances my face!

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Lastly, to finish off this face, I put on a lip color.  I do not have a preference, whatever color tickles my fancy that day is what I will slap on.  This day I went with Black Moon Cosmetics Liquid Lipstick in the shade Grave.  Still testing out this line, as mentioned earlier, so I want to give these products as much play time as possible.

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And here is the finished look!

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For me, start to finish, it takes me roughly 15 minutes to slap this all together.  If I’m not hella tired, or getting side tracked a million times.  Well, this turned out to be quite a long post.  Let me know if you liked this kind of post, or if you found it somewhat helpful.  I always enjoy reading or watching people do their almost everyday type of makeup.  Let me know what you thought in the comments down below!  What type of products do you use for your everyday look?  Or, do you even wear makeup?  Let me know!  Thanks so much for stopping by and until next time!

Oh!  For any Potterheads playing the game, I’m in Year 2, where are you at?  Let me know!  Okay, bye for now!